I´m so happy to be back home, back in my lovely community Badulina, Rainbow Terrace, my family, who expanded by new born Baby, beautiful, wise Melissa, Amber. Remember her, she is already moving the world around :)
Anyway - Challenges, this is the message of this writing. Particularly I could say only fruits welcomed me with the challenges. The best fruits what I at recently, I had to love them first to accept their challenges :) ... and then, in the end I could enjoy so much their taste and energies.
Those were maybe the best figs , what I at in my life - it appear to be so organic that I had to be really careful to not eat the warms. I´m vegan and ex squatter so it was even double challenge to mess with their homes - I will save you details :) Then prickly pears. After I could not resist eating one, even remembering last experience, I could not resist eating half of it. Mniammmyy.... but feeling the needles even in my gums I could not finish the other half :/ Still having them not only in my fingers but also around mouth I will found out on internet how to eat them and avoid the pricking. You have to love something to go through the challenge. The biggest challenge then the biggest growth, the biggest satisfaction , love etc.
Last time we had interesting situation what made my realise this and some other things as well. I was to late for her, but not from my fault and still trying doing my best etc. I will save you details. They´re more boring and less important. Straight into conclusion: To other person nagging about I may just say: "fuck off, If you do not accept me the way how I´m I don´t need you around" ... but because I love her so much, after some time I could see the lesson and learn from it. In the end I was able to go beyond my to much ego, beyond my arrogance and get the lesson from her, from life. I said humble : Sorry I was late without saying any but afterwards... and I know next time I will do my best to not to make the same mistake. I realised that this unconditional Love what I have to my daughter made me grow so much, change so much, learn so much. She never had the role of the teacher in my life, rather opposite of course, but this presence of unconditional Love made me learning so much from this relationship. Thank you universe. THANK YOU Magda
Then I reflected on my other teachers in my life. I noticed that this that my directress and teacher in Rasayana Tantra Acedemy, Dr. Tara Long - her acceptance even for sides of me what seemed to challenge her, her attitude of Mothering Love, her accepting me the way how I´m - it all together created the acceptance in me circulating between us. This presence of unconditional Love, I feel made us both get best of our challenging teacher, student relationship.
The same I could say about another my teachers in life. As more this unconditional love and acceptance was there, whatever was the way of learning, whatever was the challenge it created also in my this Unconditional Love and acceptance for the teacher, for the subjects, for the way of learning. Of course this I could see and feel as well in my relationships in my life. As more challenging there were, as more unconditional Love and acceptance was there even the challenge was huge we grow through it and when we did we grow enormously. Sometimes we didn´t and then we sometimes had to accept that this is the end of the journey of growing together. Sometimes we learned from the relationship still after it broke... but this maybe could be another story :)
Tantra is a path of the challenges, thunderbolt to enlightenment... My whole life is a challenge and I´m happy about it. I learned to see the challenges not any more as problems but as opportunities to grow. Even they´re sometimes bigger and more challenging from different sides that you would expect, even that sometimes they´re really challenging you so much that sometimes you have enough of it, that you tired of it .... I still love my life and I know that with acceptance even acceptance of not acceptance of the challenge it will mean that sometimes maybe I will have to take break or maybe even step backward.... but this is still ok. Even when we make mistakes, even when we went wrong way, when we will love unconditionally life in the end we will find the way. Maybe we will found out that we never lost the way. Because the happiness is the way, because love is the way, because love is life, life is love. We are all one.
ARE YOU READY FOR THE CHALLENGE ? YOU´RE ALWAYS WELCOME. HERE AND NOW ! HOME <3
I don´t know Brian Tracy yet but I agree with this sentence soooo much <3
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